by Susan Marie Scavo
I am scared your kiss will smother me, will consume me. I am so scared your kiss that covers my entire mouth, that engulfs my mouth completely, will engulf me completely. Your kiss will drown me.
Your kiss spins me to the word kill, spins me around and I am being smothered. It is not your kiss that smothers but there is the word kill when I feel your kiss, the word spinning around me, my head spinning, your mouth engulfing me.
Your mouth.
Your kiss spins me and the word kill spins around me, like a ghost riding the surge that whips from us. From your kiss.
Your kiss takes my breath, your engulfing kiss. Your kiss takes my breath, like you are taking my breath, like you are taking it away. You take away my breath, as if your mouth is covering my mouth and my nose, engulfing me.
Mouth to mouth.
You stop, pull back and laugh.
Then kiss me again. This time I close my eyes to the surge, close my eyes and feel the surprise of the engulfment, of all that spins around us. You lean into me, arms holding the small of my back, engulfing me and this time the word kill spins out of the surge and there is nothing but your mouth over mine.
Your mouth. My mouth. No words.
I am so scared, your kiss. I am so scared, engulfed.
I am so scared, your mouth over mine, the hunger of your mouth. I can feel the hunger of your mouth, the way it engulfs me, the way your mouth laughs as it is kissing my mouth. Your mouth. The laugh of your mouth. I am so scared and you are laughing, you are kissing my mouth, I am engulfed.
Your hunger takes my breath away.
Your hunger, my breath. Your breath.
I am engulfed.
I am so hungry.
I am so hungry and you are engulfing me in your mouth, in your laugh. Your laughing breath in my mouth. Laughing. You are breathing laughter into my mouth. My breath taken and your laughter in my mouth.
This one, you say, is for…. but I cannot hear the mumbled reason. This one, you say, mumbling the word with the kiss, mumbling the word into my mouth, your mouth moving against my mouth. The taste of your words, laughing, in my mouth. Your breath.
Laughing.
Laughing as you pull away. Laughing as I am gasping and gasping. Laughing as you turn and walk away. My mouth open in the gasp, my hunger.
Gasping. Unable to breath because you have walked away. Unable to breath because you have taken my breath and I cannot breath without you now. You have taken my breath and given me your laughter, This one, laughing. I cannot breath without you now. Your breath mine and mine yours.
You walk away taking my breath with you. Laughing. Knowing I will have to follow.