Personal Statement

March 2008 - I am still striving to be the boy and feel the Father’s love. This year my 45th year has been one of the most difficult in my life. As my children have aged I see more and more of my frustration and anger reflected in their relationship to me. In my inner work I see how I live so much in aloofness or the opposite taking responsibility. These are both the same thing, ways I avoid the pain of the boy. But the pain is where I need to be. In a dream the boy tells me when he cries he can fly. When I am feeling the pain, fear, anxiety, I am dying to self. There is nothing to do. In another dream I am bitten by a snake. My work is to allow myself to be bitten by the snake. I always want to run away aloof or protect. Fight or Flight. To be with the Father, I must become the boy. The boy doesn’t run or protect he lets the father take care of him.