Personal Statement

May 2008 - I am reacting to my husband. I believe he is angry at me for not having enough work, for not planning and making dinner, for not helping with the burden of the garden. I feel the fear, but I jump to the projection that he is angry at me. If my work would just pick up, or if I could scrounge something up, anything. I won’t buy anything for myself. That’s it. Or, we’ll eat cheaper, or I won’t challenge his ideas for fixing up the house, or step into his relationship with our son. I know—I’ll plan dinner all by myself, something tasty that he’ll like. No, wait, I’ll, I’ll, I’ll . . . . I CAN FIX THIS! I CAN BE BETTER! I CAN PLACATE THE ANGRY BEAST AND KEEP HIS LOVE. He will be happy, then, and I will be . . .