It’s been a year now since I backed out of the driveway, took my clothes down Highway 2
A muggy day that much I do recall, perhaps a little overcast with intermittent blue
I was in some kind of hurry to give myself a brand new start
So I just flipped the trip odometer to zero, sped away and clocked the distance from my heart
See I was darned if I would feel it, weren’t no point in going there
Thought the truth may be that I was so shut down by then that, well I really didn’t care
Out of sight might be out of mind, but it’s not like that with the heart
So I’m going back there now to sift through all that numbed-out blur and feel it
Each and every part
So I can see you on those porch steps, our little Sammie by your side
And I can see that look upon your face, like you’d been through it all with nothing left to hide
I can’t say that it touched me, I was all steeled up inside
But I left everything I’d known and loved behind that day, drove away and never even cried
But twelve months later I can feel it, and this pain I feel is real
It’s taken all this time to burn through that old breastplate and
expose it to this so-called man of steel
And yes, it hurts to touch these feelings, sometimes it’s like that with the heart
But I’m not moving till these feelings wash all over me and through me till I exorcise this dark
So what it gets to is forgiveness, that simple act of letting go
And yet this grudge has camped so long inside my craw that it’s convinced
that it has earned itself a home
And it refuses to go lightly, it wants to set the record right
But I want done with all this cold front that I’ve stuffed between us, just my poorly-disguised spite
So let me bathe in this forgiveness, beneath that spite and pain is love
And let me dive right to the depths of this big pool where it’s inhabited by butterflies and doves
And from this place I say I’m sorry, and that comes to you from the heart
And now I pray that I can leave this spite toward you far behind and give myself
a brand new start
There’s something else too, I forgive you, which means I’ve forgiven me
And in this simple act of finally letting go there’s now some space for me to finally be