April, 2008 Spontaneous Combustions
Break
Control - Contrived Comforts
Deliberately Demonic
Effusive.
Foray into
God's Glory:
Heaven!
Insight!
Joy!
Kindling
Love
Meet
Nexus
Operating
Points
Quicker
Respond Rapidly
Spontaneous
Truths
Unite
Vast
Wisdom
eXonerate
Yourself with
Zeal Zest
Amen
~April 2, 2008 4:15 AM
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Relationship
Relies on Me.
Recalling the homework
Reduces the stories.
Remember all the connections have connected within and
Respond from this place.
Rely on Me!
Relax within the new and unfamiliar.
Renew our connection moment by moment.
Rebuild your heart
Repairing the shards to a
Robust whole.
Rely on Me!
~April 7, 2008
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With Me
You are the equation!
The sum
The alpha & the omega
This is the work and the promise.
Stand in all you are, all I have made you to be,
And become.
The letter of the law is finite.
The natural laws of the heart are simple and finite.
The final equation is love - or it is not.
~April 9, 2008
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I want you to bring up the background to be the forefront of your life; the glasses through which you perceive everything. These are My glasses. The lense of your soul in which you carry a shard of My Light….opposed to shards of feelings…
Partition
Raw
Outrageous
Judgment & Justification
Explanation
Crucify
Truth
Incite & Invite
Old
Negativity
No love there.
No mending possible when the trauma becomes a morphing target.
Instead
Navigate
Thrill
Open
Response ability
Just by
Experiencing
Core
Trauma/Truths
Yes, for you it is fear. Shy and Awkward girl who sat frozen in her wanting of Animus as He reached over & around you just so you could feel these very tender truths of you.
~April 11, 2008
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Me: Why do I jump away from my pain? Why frozen from my wanting? Paralyzed?
Paralyzed and giving excuses are just flavors of fear, of jumping away. There are so many - never mind them.
Never mind why.
Never mind.
Drop down & feel scared! The next layer of trauma awaits us both. You for the touching excruciating, and I will mend with soft, cleansing tears.
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It's not so much what you do, or don't do, but your approach to what you do, no matter really what that is. We are looking for, guiding you to, a relaxed approach. In that way you are open to the next moment…merely open without an agenda that fosters the 'busting through' place.
Relax and open approach.
~April 12, 2008
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Each part is greater than the whole.
There is no whole, no unit without the individuality of the individual and that is the why and the because each is greater than the whole.
~April 12, 2008
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Me: Help me out from under attack!
Shh. Hush first. Shhhh.
Rock gently with Me.
Shh. Quiet.
More quiet
Deeper, longer breaths.
Come back to Me.
Come home to Me.
There there.
I am always here.
Nothing to do or plan.
No one to call because companionship cannot mend.
I am the one you are to turn to.
Over and over and over again.
Shhh.
Move slowly
Sip tea
Hang laundry outside
With Me always inside
Inside
When thinking returns remember homework of most fear:
Snakebite!
Be in the center of the burning building!
Drive off the icy mountain pass!
Crack your history! Crumble your stories! Step around your hurt!
Who are you without these?
THE ONE.
Fall broken into Me
For I am always here in the epicenter of your pain
Open to your fear to rest in Me.
Open to the pain: I am in you
Mourn for the 19 year old lost you and
Celebrate her death at the same time.
Now you feel it. Now you know. This is the way. You are the One when you drop down.
Down into you which is Me. Greater than.
~April 24, 2008
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CASH & CARRY
You have lived this way. “What you see is what you get”
Proclaiming insight, psychic awareness and special powers of discernment. Then, look at your choices. Mud for the most part.
Yet much of this IS true - which makes your dying very difficult for you.
You've gained the faith and stopped the excuses.
You have seen into the lie of the 2% righteousness, correctness as meaningless - in the face of the shallowness, the hurt or the defended spirit.
What can a defended spirit be?
Do you want to be with one such as you in this way?
Waiting for the other shoe to drop, stopping, withholding when the relationship feels like too much…
Is it too much to be with Me every hour?
Too much to be with Me totally!
` To hold yourself, contain yourself,
Too much to be vulnerable?
Too much to lose if you don't!
Too much time
Too much partnership/relationship
Too much true connection that you crave
Too much value, vulnerable heart.
What you see is often the tip of the iceberg, or the wrapping of something else entirely. What you get depends totally and unequivocally upon what you become. What you become changes how you see which in turn changes what you get.
You know nothing.
Pray in gratitude to keep emptying out. You will be filled with more than you could ever imagine, the marbling of Truth and Light you so fiercely hold, as if for dear life- which it is! This will be the totality of you. First though, you must give it up to clean out entirely.
Keep the faith
Know nothing
Pray in gratitude.
~April 29, 2008