Several weeks ago I had this dream:
Tim Robbins (movie star) was very tall and somewhat distant but powerful. He was involved with another man in a co-operative or something or other... This other man was smaller and seemed to be in charge although Tim was somehow in a supportive role with him so so it seemed. The smaller man was barechested with some kind of farmer jeans on. He had thin arms and a hairy chest.
I was running around trying to be of some help. I liked them both. However, I was turned off by the smaller man and I can't say why. He seemed a bit too feminine for me but he was very spiritual. I wanted to help them. They had been given some cans of rotten food and they were going to pay for it anyway. I kept coming up with ideas to reclaim these losses but they kept changing rooms and I felt ignored. They didn't care about the losses or my help.
Finally, the smaller man came over to me. He brought his face right to my face and then disappeared inside of me. As he did this I asked who he was and at that moment his face entered mine and he said: "I AM YOU." I awoke...
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I feel him as me. I knew instantly that this was the me I was becoming. And Tim was the animus.
It's an uneasy feeling being him because what is left of my personna couldn't accept that this is what I was in Gods eyes. It felt smallish and all too vulnerable. Unlike many dreams where the feeling eventually ebbs; this feeling has stayed strong in me and is expanding inside. It feels like a lake that is flooding and gradually covering all the land that had been shoreline. I feel his essence whenever I remember him. I am him with this new feeling of beingness. I feel even closer to the animus Tim. Its not just that I am in essence. I am in essence with a personality unique to me. As I accept him more I see the old sense of me fade and feel my fate tied to his. When I know I am him I feel joy and freedom. When I forget I become anxious.