Sand and water and the beating of the waves
I feel like I am a well of now
Right now, tomorrow's too late
As the song goes, forever can wait
And I hold onto the countless lost moments
Of my life, lost moments, when I fled
And the ones that were real disappeared
Into the not knowing of myself
Into the sand and the waves and the beating of my heart
Right now, my words are a song and they long for the beauty of my heart
Right now, and the sunshine seeks out rhythm and rhyme
As if the feelings are hidden there, are riding the waves, there
Poignance, I am seeking the meaning of tears
And in my ears I hear the word fears
And joy
Mystery and poignance and joy like the cadence of a song I hear inside
What are they for, these, 'cause I am them these feelings that call to me from the deep
I look up as I stop swimming and sink
I see the surface brightened by sunlight
Between me and some other world
As I sink
And wonder what it means and what I have lost
Up there
On the other side of the light of my joy and my tears
Seeing rain falling into my eyes
And the heart is so deep
Right now, I'm forever waking from sleep
And I'm crying I don't know why
At the sky, I look up as I sink deeper I wonder if the mud awaits me
If I am a frog
Right now, I am meeting you there, so beautiful
The one I was afraid to kiss
All those lost moments when I was not a child and lost myself for holding too tight
Afraid of the light of not knowing, not being, of forgetting who I am so I can just be
Right now, like an echo of my feelings my heart is a song I cannot stop hearing
I cannot stop sinking
Too late, tomorrow's too late
I'll meet you right now
Where our hearts are going down
Like the sun
For a moment the jingle jangle of harsh words, rude, broken, I am afraid
Then I remember
Shaking the chains of disbelief and I remember again
Chasing the demons away
Away
They shall not stay
And the freedom I feel as long and loosened limbs
They are free,
My mind is clean
And my heart is pure as I remember how it feels to love you
To lift my twisting face to the sun
And not be afraid so to feel, and to feel, out of control, sinking, slowly, deeper
Right now, I'm breaking the gate
And walking like a prisoner released
I know the taste of paradise
In the green scented truth
And will I meet you there, lover?
I know I will, I feel, I taste your lips still
Your salty sea of smile and delight
Washing against my soul
You are my soul
You are
Right now, I see the dark dungeons of my regret
And I wonder how many times I've wasted there
My head in my hands
And even there
There is right now the musty scent of decay and new life born of strange blood and unknown
Right now, that man dips his great pen in my heart
He is dipping his pen in the well of my heart
And writes who I am
I am this little flickering flame
That would not go out
That would light my way out of the darkness of all my lost days
I feel like I am a breaking wave
Cooling the feet of my lover
Touching those places unseen
Which she has saved for me
That only I will know
Where if my kisses where knives
They would slay her of my ill temper
And weakness, and my forgetting
The assigned place of our meeting.