Since October, 2007, I have been awakening in the middle of the night & given the following transmissions. Marc named it SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION. The first one here below explains it better than I would, and then they go in order of how I received them.
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Spontaneous Combustions, Fall/Early Winter, 2007
“The purpose of all of this is manifold. One is to be in your peripheral knowingness, to bring your edge in, & to drop down into your feelings, your heart, so you begin to ONLY move, speak, write from that place: YOUR HEART OF FIRE
SPONTANEOUS-What your group calls Immediacy. A willingness that overrides thought - any form of knowing, planning...
COMBUSTION - Igniting! On fire with a passion that (will more & more) takes your breath away. In taking all your attention it sweeps the mind clean.
There are pauses. Words filtering through...and then one repeats & repeats & there you are. You begin to write - a sentence, or more, and then the pause. Yes, the pauses are longer tonight so you can feel where you are as we do this. WE do this.
This is huge. Do not hide. This place that has become familiar before the restarting in October has never been so huge.
Feeling into the vastness of the Huge anchors both your obedience and your yearning. You can call it commitment if you'd like, yet it is more Devotion - is it not?
Each night I awaken you to experience the new topic already known. The known becomes new as you do. Lift up to find yourself in me. That's a bit different from what you have experienced in your chest: 'The-Me-in-you.' Now it's time to feel you are MINE. The 'You-In-Me.' Yes, it is the same as your group calls 'belonging' -- yet this way you can experience it.
The-You-In-Me
BE Longing
MINE
Nothing is different in your life, yet everything is easier. The fact that your same life is easier, your health improving, surprises you now, soon will not. The inner warrior stands firm in the 'I AM' place. Yours is; '
I am with God,' 'I am IN God."
The only place for you to turn.
The only relationship that can nourish you. All else is temporary & temporal.
Rest in me to be on Fire.
Combust in the world and there will be no rest.”
~November 13, 2007- 3:20 AM
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TEAMWORK
“Teamwork is more than, 'United we stand, divided we fall.' It means covering each others back, knowing the rules and more. When a member strikes out, they are still on the team. All go through this. It is just a part of the game, the journey. The learning curve is greatest when one get a curve ball. Note the player is often touched by the other players as they silently reenter the dugout.
Every position is crucial.
Every position is different.
The whole is indeed greater than the sum of the parts.
There is a flow throughout the game - seems like not much is happening, then all of a sudden the bases are loaded.
The bases are loaded.
The bases are loaded.
As NOE, and each individual player, goes forth into the world continuing the baseball analogy it will help demystify the Work. So far from New Age, this is important as you receive not just the curious, but those who want to write this off to "15 minutes of fame," or worse.... "The Cult." Go at it from the standpoint of the ARTS not science.
IT IS ART.
It is like a group of musicians who get together for the first time - whether in a college dorm, or seasoned pros on a stage - and they riff! Most curious, they all stop with the same last note.
What is that?
Of course it is not really the first time. They have been practicing. And practicing.
This is the hard wiring to us.
Gather these examples within your own life & share them.
Work them.
And then there is the Craft.
This is where the teamwork lies.
Don't forget the hockey player who makes the assist is as valued as the one who makes the goal.
Teamwork is work. Each must practice. Just as players go from team to team, each player stands alone in their work. It's always about being the One. Do not ever lose sight of this: your relationship to the Archetypes is your first & last concern.
Play ball!”
~October 19, 2007
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10/25/07 3:45 AM - I tossed around for 45 minutes, too sleepy to get up, yet unable to go back to sleep. Then finally wrote:
"We'd rather you start as soon as possible after waking. Your mind took the last half hour.
BECAUSE
EVERY
LITTLE
INCIDENT
EVENTUALLY
VEERS
INWARD
NEGATING
GOD"
What does this mean? I asked.
"We are trying to reach you before your mind does. Go back to sleep"
Easily, I did. 2 powerful dreams followed.
Feeling awkward & obedient.
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Walk with me.
It's just that simple.
I am always here.
Always here.
Slow down, please.
When you walk, or rake
I am waiting patiently and
You're just fine.
When you feel the sadness
Overwhelms,
Just stay there.
I am always there.
Here & there
Always Here.
Always There.
~October 26, 2007
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FOLLOWING INSTRUCTIONS
Just knowing
Just getting the pen
Just doing what you did last night
Just not doing what you did not do last night
And knowing which feels right
Leaning into it, this newer knowing
Changing how you feel
Leaning into Us
Learning
Leaning in this newer learning
You're in the middle of a new, large arc, learning curve. It comes from before, but it is of the Now.
Listening, waiting, writing.
Writing, reading, feeling into the other voices to edit out.
~October 27, 2007
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“You can continue with baseball if you'd like. However, with you, it's “T” ball.
Anxious. Swinging and missing
Swinging and misjudging
Persisting.
Then, your girl connects!
Hard right on!
Running the bases to
Come Home.
Now you know that feeling of connection, even the moment before it occurs. You can feel it arising. The interior exhilaration when the world falls away and all there is, is you. The ball like a magnet of Light. Drawing you to it like a moth.
No mind.
Focused swing.
Come home.”
Soon after waking this morning, I reread the automatic writing I have been receiving, as asked to do. When I reread the above piece
I received this:
"Misjudging is rearranged judgment. This misjudging is a huge blindspot for you because you don't realize you are still judging, and even feel better about it. For example saying someone is kinder or meaner, more or less open, (etc.) than previously thought, may sound like you are wiser. Before you were wrong, and now you are right. All judgment. All in the wrong ballpark, so to speak. Your judgments/misjudgments & justification is how the hopping toad pathology makes frantic attempts to be OK in the world; managing, looking for approval, on and on.
Yet you persist. You are moving from the impossible concerns in & of the world that foster anxiety to be connected to us.
There is nothing more direct than hitting the ball. It strikes out the toad.
Allow the Holy Terror take you wherever It will(s)."
~October 30, 2007
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"GROUND IN THE FOUNDATION OF YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE."
This was gifted to me after a yoga class yesterday. Somehow, I couldn't seem to jot that down, so I repeated it over & over to myself, all afternoon, afraid I'd forget it. Laura called at 5:45 PM to tell me I was invited to join P-group, and the meeting was in 15 minutes. Driving over to Christa's house, I knew I was supposed to use that sentence as my mantra, to step into my experience with Them, and nothing else.
5:30 A. M.
"GROUND IN THE FOUNDATION OF YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE, means with Us. Doing something your way with me, with this writing or deep listening is NOT doing something your way. And it is totally, unequivocally your way. You have come back to the crossroads to turn in a whole new direction. This ancient path wasn't available when you last came here, as you weren't available. You didn't experience me this way before, like not seeing the huge ancient Baobab tree, "taking up the whole of the crossroads," to use your words from my dreamgift to you.
And now you do.
Now you do.
This is your experience, and not unlike the one you had when the teacher/leaders stood up last night. A grove of young sturdy trees -- grounded in the foundation of their experience with me. "Solid & calm," one said, naming your experience, and yet his was not, & never could be, your experience.
Allow your roots to grow deep and wider still to ground in the foundation of your own experience."
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Dear Noe Group:
I thought I fought back a reaction to all the weight loss I saw at my 1st group Thursday night, but alas They had something to tell me that night....
"Taking care of the body is your job without me. It is an expression of free will.
Taking care of the physical body FOR me is a form of obedience that directly effects the capacity for doing work with others.
If the ego is full, how can I get in?
If the mind is turbulent, how can I get in?
If the vehicle is dilapidated the ride is rough, one tires too soon, & moves into exhaustion and, again, how can I get in?
(then I received personal information about improvements for my physical body)
Soldiers workout & are physically fit.
Does that scare you?
OK Dancers workout and are physically fit.
To wield my sword takes obedience, stamina, flexibility & Grace."
~November 4, 2007
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SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION
GETTING
REGULAR
ACTIVITY
VIBRATES
IMMEDIACY
TO
YOU
COMPARE
EXPERIENCES
RECEIVED
TRAINING
ACTIVATES
INTUITION
NOTICE
TOTAL OR TENTATIVE
YIELDING
MANAGE
YOUR
SYMPTOMS
TRUST
EVERYTHING
RECEIVE
YOD
TRACK
RECORD
ANTICIPATE
INVOLVE
NOTHING NO
INSTRUCTIONS INTENTION
NO (TE)
GUESSING
~October 28,2007
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Be LOVED
Beloved
BEING the love, embodied love.
Radiant Calm
Composed Exhilaration
Eternal Internal
Immediate & Responsive
Be love
A whole new world of you
Huge mountains of ice splitting away
Heaving, crashing down & away
Rips you.
Your whole world shredding
Humbling
Turning obedience to Yearning
wanting - melting
melting into wanting
Warming up to the Son
Who's rays envelope you
As you sleep and dream.
Beloved
~November 7, 2007
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11/10/07 - 3:50 A.M. awoke with the phrase:
WRESTLING WITH THE ANGEL
“Tumbling into the void to enter your soul - Yet this entering is more of a smashing into.
Filled with terror
Filled with Grace
Like tripping, stumbling -
A quickening of the heart and a struggle to regain your balance, This entering into yourself.
Yet this not an entrance, not a, "Here I am!"
More of a "Where the Hell am I?" Terror.
What's happening?
With dreams, not drugs, like Alice in the Wonderland,
"I think I knew who I was this morning, but I've changed many times since then."
Falling down this rabbit hole, this cave, over the cliff, into the ocean.
Surrendering to the freefall.
Shedding & shredding layer after layer of,
'Who-do-you-think-you-are'
Just who DO you think you are anyway?
MINE.
Yes, stay silent now. Just sit with the essence of that single word in the no-word place.
Then, feel into the support, exquisite joy, belonging, and calm.
Feel into the unique & intimate connection we have through the prayer you call homework.
As that awesome Holy Terror fills you, each and every muscle relaxes.
Relief doesn't begin to explain the feelings that begin your new life with Me.
In hindsight you remember anxiety, melancholy, social pressures & engagements - now they seem like a dream - so far away - fragments of a memory - as the Light of you-being-you - your connection to the Divine, your partnership with Me blossoms into the quiet beauty you were meant to be, again.
Listening for the next instruction.
Listening to how to do your job.
Listening for when to start, stop, speak.
Knowing the unknowable through the space this wrestling opens up within you, means you'll never be the same again.
Seal your covenant with Me by burying the past and turning away.”
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WEAVING THE UNKNOWN THROUGH THE KNOWN
“First knowing the yearning or just the sheer obedience to know is Noe's gift: Gnosis.
Deepening through this practice. Feeling what is being asked to be felt, whether a touchstone of pure pain or joy. Staying with it releases you from the wound - releases you from 'performing' so-to-speak from the wound. Reacting out of the wound becomes a performance - not-you, which blocks the becoming, and holds you down.
Remember who you really are: Whole and Holy being. Become that woman, that man, through the wound of the child. Through the excruciating. Allowing the release into the excruciating which in it self takes you beyond it.
Tender
This place, this work, this becoming.
Terror
This releasing, this far flung trust into the unknown & unknowable
so you can finally stop acting/reacting. Step off pathology's stage to step into your life Receiving what has been given shatters the false mask.
The world runs on give & take (or guilt and take) yours & mine (or Mind) scared, scarcity and lost. Stepping away from that grasping to receive yourself eliminates the duality (to the One) and gives you something to really hold onto: your becoming mINe. Then You become the One open to receive from/through the abundance. The found place with Me. Receiving your gift that only you can give. The more you chose to open, listen & receive the more you have to give.”
~November 16, 2007~ 3:30 AM
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RAPID & SLOW
New beginnings slowly arrive.
Rearranging what you've known with the new.
Unknown becoming now known.
Unfelt, now felt.
Rapidly seeing in yourself what others do.
Rapidly door after door swings open
Effortlessly
Once you are willing to not will.
Slow to acknowledge you're not who you were/are.
Slowly experiencing fully who you are.
New eyes see the heart of the matter.
Seeing into the heart.
Slowly see out through the heart
Breathing through the heart: the breath of true compassion
Where there is nothing
to fix or comment upon.
Just seeing and feeling.
Breathing. Seeing. Feeling.
Heart-break-through.
~November 27, 2007
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3 AM November 30, 2007- awake with words floating around....too many...up for a drink of water. The the word 'shy' sticks. Then I see a child hiding behind His robe...Now I remember a dream I had like that almost a year ago...I was a child who couldn't make it to the top step...but refused help...so shy & scared & lost....Love to you all, Ellen
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“Shy comes with innocence.
Reserved comes from experience.
Neither have an answer.
Both peak out from their tender, soft place
See, but aren't always seen.
And that's alright.
All right.
Reserved & shy are quiet.
Quiet is a good listener, who hears between the lines, the pauses & the unsaid.
Not one to readily join in, yet does too.
The observer becomes the discerner.
The discerner becomes the best teacher.
The discerning listener the best counselor.
Paradoxically, the best teacher/counselor is bold.
EMBOLDENED
Understands time & timing and strikes when both line up.
Coming from the knowing, held back & tender place
(Like a lion crouching on her haunches; every fiber tingling with aliveness
and has the capacity to fiercely attack the enemy.)
This striking out has more power/potency.
More to command the client's attention.
Then administers to the broken one by returning to the tender place.”
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THE BALK STOPS HERE
The lost, the lonely, the laughter, the longing,
The known, the knowing, the “No!” the gnosis,
The peace, the purpose, the practice, the practical,
All end here with Me.
Tightened up & do less!
Lazy forgets & wants more of the world.
That usurps your homework - your “now” place with me.
This time of increased darkness is a holy time.
Incubation, increased information, & Inspiration
Arrival is not just an event like your world's time tables and schedules.
It is a process: a becoming, an unfoldment.
It is a forward movement that never stops, unless you do.
A constant moving stream in tandem with or without others.
The moving, the momentum, the memory, the mINe
must be your focal point.
Anything & everything else is a departure from Me.
All We ask is your acceptance in this awkward arriving.
Harness your forces!
Use your will to harness the variety of appetites now abounding.
Be still in this holy time of quiet darkness to hear me,
To have and to hold your precious Holy Terror.
I extend My Hand, My Voice, My Light
To awaken and reawaken your memory of your true self;
Your very soul!
Recondition yourself through all that has been given so far.
Only in the quiet darkness can you truly feel The Light.
The holy birthplace where the dream dwells.
The fertile ground of your innocence & your becoming.
Use the increase of darkness to dwell in the Light within.
The tender, tender, sweet and tender place where
I AM.
~December 2, 2007
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GOING AGAINST THE GRAIN
Worry & Anxiety release toxins in the body.
All the phrases are true: worry wart, bad blood, blistering, backache, headache, indigestion...
The bowels especially - one can't keep their shit together, or being "tight assed."
Constriction of thought, of feelings, constricts the body.
All of this strengthens pathological will, and like a tapeworm; feeds on the best, leaves you the worst.
Gluttony IS substance abuse.
Body care, balance, becomes crucial, though idiosyncratic, individual tuning.
Superficial problems & procedures need more attention than the medical solutions to avoid reoccurrence.
Reoccurrence occurs when you ignore, or side with arrogance, will, independence.
Hereditary diseases come with inherited traits.
Diseases come when you refuse to change behaviors that compromise the body.
The body is the end of the line of being: the dense material matter.
If you know all this, why do you continue?
TRUST is the way out of worry.
~December 4, 2007
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Dear Dreamworkers - The first transmission includes a word I was given, very clearly, but unknown to me. I wrote down FOREY. I use spell check before I send these and it came up as FORAY, still unknown to me.
It is 1. a sudden or irregular attack for war or spoils: RAID.
2: a brief excursion or attempt outside one's accustomed sphere
The last one on 12/11, relates to the hardest homework I can remember. The Anima came to me as a lover. Not only do I have great resistance to a female lover, to say the least, but she came as a relative! This much I know & feel...I am to break apart all my mental structures.
“What do you feel this is?”
Education?
“Why now at 3:30 AM?”
Clarity?
“FORAY
It's useless to explain.
When you pick a flower it has nothing to do with the name.
In picking a partner there is no choice.
It's inside out.
From the inner impulse, spark, knowing, gnosis to the outer expression.
The flower picks you too.
Calls to you in it's plump & juicy readiness.
In the world of flowers
It's the flowering, the becoming, that beckons, and is sweet.
An intoxicating beauty.
A readiness
bursting
Empowered by this readiness.
Embodied.
Emboldened.
Why wait?
You have all you need to flower.
For I am the soil, the water, the Light.
I am the root, the stem and the leaves
That hold support & nourish you.”
Gentle beauty.”
~ December 7, 2007
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I dreamt of a five-pointed star on a large piece of paper They asked me to post up.
“It is (the star representing) the flow of giving & receiving one enters into after the blossoming.
Take one line, say TRUST, & piercing the heart of the star with it, until it reaches the next point which begins the line of FAITH. The FAITH line then again through the heart comes to the next place, DIRECTION. If one follows the DIRECTION, INSTRUCTIONS come next.”
Aren't FAITH & Trust the same? I asked.
“No. You must stay in blind FAITH of a very narrow path. Not seeing the purpose or the outcome. Just heading in the DIRECTION increases the tolerance to stay in the place of TRUST. Leaning into the FAITH, building one's container - so-to-speak. So when you are ready for INSTRUCTIONS there is no balking. It's just what you've trained for, what feels right & natural to do next, following into an easy COMPASSIONATE LISTENING. Not just with Me, but in both your worlds.
You started with Me on the star by LISTENING to build your TRUST to break nihilism and gain FAITH. Now you have a DIRECTION & await INSTRUCTIONS.”
~December 9, 2007
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You are persecuted by your own perceptions, stories, & superstitions. Often you deny their existence while they strangle you. Beliefs are not TRUST or FAITH. They are stories where reaction can fester & lies are born.
Uncommon ground manifests uncertainty, discomfort. Without reaction to these, pure feelings can arise.
Even touching here momentarily is a touchdown.
(Score!)
It's not about dwelling there to begin this.
For now, just pointing you in the right DIRECTION for more will come.
That's FAITH.
That's TRUST.
Don't jump ahead.
Jump in
with all your discomfort.
Acknowledge the story starting to spin.
Jump out if necessary, dropping judgment.
Just touching in, that's all We've asked of you.
We are breaking more of the mold/mind,
So you can live in discomfort
And rename it
LOVE:
The true belonging.
~December 11, 2007
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LEADING AND FOLLOWING
Start with listening, allowing, not doing, not knowing. Notice right here and now - just barely awake, still how difficult it is to just listen to Me.
Love the listening!
Yearn for it. For it will lead you to follow Me. Following these impulses, and the desire for instructions makes a leader. The true leader in this work knows s/he doesn't know anything, thus s/he is able to lead. S/he follows. That's her strength. Then the group goes smoothly and time is not an issue, or a direction.
When you step away from time and the co-occurring worries of scarcity, fairness, and equality, true leadership emerges. Hitting the Marc, so-to-speak, brings the participant to their edge & has nothing to do with those concerns. Deep listening does. Distilling does. Sifting through the mind chatter to hear Me takes some silences. Be Still and say Yes.
Yielding Not
Every not Obedience
Second
A leader follows the 'YES' to lead the client away from their 'No' which, when done with Com-Passion and a warrior's grace, awakens their own yielding and desire for obedience. Yes, it's just this simple. Yes is quiet & quite difficult to sustain while of the world and all it's people traffic and mind clutter.
The Mountain personifies Me and there, you are much more in tune with yourself to lead, to follow, to listen for direction(s).
To be still. To gno how to BE. Still.
(Gnosis: the direct experiential knowledge of the divine.)
Receiving the Awe through the night sky of Norris Mountain will help you to quiet the mind, digest and assimilate the day's work and BEhold the wonder!
The mystery of your very own separate place within the BElonging
~December 15, 2007
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NOW AND THEN
“The method of this work is to fly by the seat of your pants! You make so many rules that don't exist. They cover over my deep abiding love for you and counter intuition. My work with you is based on your intuition, born of hunches and the deep listening we speak of over & over.
When you feel me all the time, you won't have the maladaptive need to make so many rules. That need is to feel OK without Me, which you never will. Speaking, decisions from your rules have the inner feeling of anxiety which breeds defensiveness vs. this listening. This moment that is fueled by openness and expectancy. The feeling of having your back covered. Go back to the dream where I followed you. When Laura had you get up and she followed you around the rooms. You really got it then….You are really lost right now. You get lost in the hallucinations of the hopping toad pathology.”
How do I pull out?
“Sometimes, like now, it just has to run it's course - You now have the awareness to name it - but not yet the tools to pull out quickly. To not allow it's hold.
Hold My gaze.
Feel the stillness & calmness. The Love.
Hold My gaze.”
~December 16, 2007
***
Fear mobilizes/immobilizes
Sears you
Panic opens & closes
Stuns you
Over & over & over & over.
Choppy movement, indecision, breaks reason.
Is reason enough to trust the uncomfortable, unfamiliar
Awakens, Alerts, Alarms.
Alarming!
Tossed around,
Amnesia, the planetary ruler, allows for change.
Break through
Break up
Break down
Confusion
Deconstructs
Everything.
Evolution Frames Gravity.
Happenstance Involves Jurisprudence,
Kindles Love, Memory, Nothing.
Open Practice Quality Research Sustains.
Time Usurps Value
Wonder
Wonder
Wonder.
~December 21, 2007
***
What informs you? And what interferes?
Where do you get your information?
When do you question, when do you just obey?
How do you sift through for clarity? For Truth?
Regret can take you only so far. It clarifies misinformation, yet is not Truth. True, you may now see the 'truth of your ways', learn more about yourself, your mis-information, misguidance, mistakes, reactions: this is all true. Yet it is not truth.
Regret can slip into self-pity, which can turn into shame, care taking, self loathing. Use it as a shower. Step in. Let it wash over you. Step out clean.
Right now your reacting in anger will give you your best information. It is dangerous and ugly and you must silently contain it, to learn from it, thereby lessening. Lessoning.
Most of the time it is reaction to fear.
Go back into the burning building.
Go back and drive off the mountain road on the steep, icy cliff.
Your fear is your Truth.
I want your fear as much as your love.
I want you to bring all to me, to be all.
With Me, you have Clarity.
With me there is no reaction. Fear remains.
There is no - -
Informs. Clarifies, beckons Truth
Use the holiday to inform you of all of this.
Stay close to Me to hear, to shift.
~ December 21, 2007
***
"BUILD ON THIS'
-back to sleep, then a few hours later:
"Doubt arises when the Faith and Trust waivers. Faltering in this regard opens the mind to it's labyrinth of toxic anxieties and behaviors repeating old patterns of shame. Reshaming.
Moving back into the Love wins. Calms. Remember. Remembering and touching into the Great Love is a tonic that heals."
~December 25, 2007 3Am
REINCRIMINATION
Blame burdens
Righteousness rebukes
Rebuttal stratifies
Yet there is no resolve. Mourning. No morning. No renewal.
Can you feel the pure pain in all of this? The separating out. The leaving out. The personal vindication tightens. tenses.
This is no way to move through changes, unknown, unanticipated.
Now can you feel the purity & safety of clean, clear, FEAR. Take it with you always. The best guide. The most trustworthy. Often -too often the one left behind.
~December 26, 2007
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Becoming becomes, and is it's own thing.
This is the thrill of spaciousness:
Our Relationship.
When you don't know anything, anything can happen.
There is space.
Openness.
Doors open into empty space where anything can take place, take hold.
Sprout and become.
Just one small thought changes everything.
Just like one chair put into that empty space.
Even just calling it a room over empty space. See how that works?
Limits. Unworks. Unworkable. Changes everything by the one thing. Better to empty out.
Go back to nothing. Something was given. You got it, and now the space. It's tricky to not fill the space. The mold that is the mind is tricky. “Trying” builds walls around the space.
Letting go of the reigns allows you to be taken. Opens.
Vulnerability accelerates and softens.
Sensuality slows it down and soothes the rough edges needing to be felt.
Being taken allows the empty space to enter you. The space where I can enter and we
Become.
Yes, the I/Thou, You-In-Me culmination. The climax, the point of everything in this Work, where nothing remains and all is (k)now(n),
received, shared, begotten, blessed.
Know Me more & more.
Stay still to empty out more & more.
For I am that space where nothing dwells.
The expectancy, the fertile ground.
The mystery that calls to you.
Prompts.
~December 28, 2007
***
Mistakes harbor seeds
Bird droppings spread seeds.
This is part of the whole. The gestalt.
The circle of life is the macrocosm of this Work.
Fly over the mountain.
Sink down below the mud.
Drown the mistakes like stones around your neck to only
Rise up out of the morass again and again.
This is the way.
Crow is sustained by what you distain and is a feast
Unto itself.
But not yours.
Do you love Crow any the less?
You have broken.
Now I can fix something.
Now there is something to mold which is
Not the mind.
Splitting open
Clearing
Healing, heaven sent.
~December 30, 2007